Thursday, December 20, 2007

It all started with the eggnog

~ This is sister Lorena. She died last year of Ovarian Cancer. She was a mother of 4 kids, 2 girls, 2 boys. Her life had alot of turmoil in it from her husband to her health to just life in general. It's a really long story and makes me extra sad to think about it.

About 3 weeks ago, I started to really feel down. Home stuff, holiday pressures, and crafters block. Out of the blue I started to think of Lorena and really began to miss her. I think I was finally starting to grieve for her. I started hearing her voice in my head with her smile and New Jersey accent telling me that I was going to be famous someday with my art. She really "believed" in me. I don't get alot of confirmation on my art. People tend to take my art for granted and pretty much consider it as a hobby but of no real value. Lorena was a artist too and that's why she understood me.

In the course of totally missing her and feeling sad and lonely, strange things started to happen. And it only happened when I was in the heart of thinking of her, hearing her and crying for her.

I was in the kitchen and had just poured myself a mug of egg nog. As I was taking a quick sip, Dyllan came in to show me "something" in the living room. I quickly put the egg nog in the microwave and pressed the 1 minute button. When I came back from Dyllan's little show and tell, the mug of egg nog was on the counter. And hot.

Another time, as I was snuggeling with Dyllan in part to get him to fall asleep for nap time and for me to get a few winks, I clearly heard the sound of one of our kitchen table chairs move. We have wooden chairs and tile floor. And the sound was very distinctive.

In the kitchen, I have a large craft size roll of white butcher paper. I use it for crafting , baking, everything. It stands on end next to the fireplace and near the kitchen table. If it falls over, it makes a whumph sound.
~One day while Dyllan was napping and I was at the computer in the studio, I heard that familiar whumph. I went downstairs to find that it had not fallen at all.

Our upstairs hallway is extra creaky lately and I've been hearing sounds when no one is there. I've also been seeing moving shadows and at one point during the day, I was scared to go into the dark master bedroom.

I'm a sensitive. And in the winter months my ability gets stronger. I believe Lorena has come to me for two reasons; to reassure me of my artistic talent and to ask me to find and be family to her kids.

As for the other weird stuff, I think it's a "Seasonal" haunting and will pass after the new year.

So I hope all you wonderful blogging friends will forgive me in not visiting you daily as I usually do. I've had a lot on my mind lately.

I'll see you soon!
~Michelle

12 comments:

Flea Market Queen said...

Oh Michelle...I have tears & goosebumps as I read your posting!
I have 3 sisters and our bond is like no other, I can't even let myself think of one of them not being in my life anymore!
At least in a physical sense...
I feel she is with you, guiding you artistically and emotionally!
Bless you & her...
And for your info your art is fabulous,I love it!
As do many others I'm sure.
Wishing you & yours very Happy & healthy holidays...
Priscilla

Natasha Burns said...

Wow Michelle,
Your art is lovely and you should be confident and proud of it, how sad about your sister dying so young. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and do with your experiences what you feel you need to, what you think they are teaching you.
Take care,
Natasha : )

Rosemary said...

Wow Michelle,
I got the goosebumps. I believe.
I think she is trying to tell you something.
You and yours have a wonderful Christmas.
Rosemary

Alison Gibbs said...

Oh Michelle,
It's sometimes hard to start grieving for someone we love so much - cos we don't want to believe they are gone.
Lorena was and is a part of who you are and means so much to you. Just remember how much she believed in you and know that you are a wonderful person and true artist.
Have a fun, family christmas.
Alison

Lee W. said...

Michelle- hope your spirits are soon lifted. What a gift for Lorena to come visit you. Maybe she's just trying to comfort you, or remind you that she's always there. I was missing my grandmother not too long ago, and I had a conversation with her in my head- so clearly- I could hear her voice. She would always say "hi, hon" when I called her, and then I started saying it! I never say "hon". It made me teary at the time, but better to know that she knew I missed her. The holidays are for celebrating- and remembering her in such a great way is celebrating her life and your love for her!

Heather Grow said...

Gosh Michelle. It sounds like a lot has been going on around your house lately. I know that I'm not an artist like your sister but I really enjoy your creations. I have your blog on my feeds list so I never miss anything.

updycrafts said...

I absolutely love your art and I also believe in the shared senses of sisters. This is the time of year we should all feel the spirit, what ever that might be for you.
Wendy

Wendy said...

Michelle, your art is wonderful and you should never doubt yourself! We all go through that artistic block and we think, "what the heck am I doing this for, nobody likes it?" syndrome.....you are not alone....stay passionate and good things will come!

I totally believe that your sister is with you trying to help you through your time of need and grief.
I wish you and your family a Happy Holiday!

Pandora said...

It does sound like your sister is trying to make contact with you - just to let you know she is there for you and to give you support. I have spirits at my house too and I think if you are open and receptive to what they are trying to tell you, you can find out wonderful things. So hang in there, tune into your sister's spirit and she can help you through this tough time. After the holidays, I would LOVE to get together with you and have you show me some crown making tips! I love that crown of yours on your blog pics! You are a fabulous artist, don't ever doubt that! And remember darling Dyllan knows good art when he sees it and he says you're the best! Take care :-)

katydiddy said...

I know we talked about this the other day, but please know I'm always here for you. You are a beautiful, creative & good person. I'm proud to have you as a friend.

Kathleen Marie said...

Sorry to hear about the loss of your sister... even after time passes, it is still difficult.

I hope 2008 brings you much joy and peace. I'd love to hear more about what you teach at Michael's craft stores. I would like to teach an informal journal/sketching class, but I have no idea where to start.

DebiV said...

Michelle:

You are a great artist. I love to go to your crops. I am sorry to hear about your sister. I am sure she was a wonderful sister and looking out for you.

Take care and I hope to see you in the new year.

Debi

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